I was addicted to Meth for 8 years, staying up for up to 14 days at a time and
not eating for 4-5 days at a time. I abandoned my 2 oldest children with their
dad and gave birth during my addiction to my 3rd child. I lost my family, home,
jobs, friends, money, possessions, self respect and freedom during those
years. I stayed high so I would not have to feel the pain of reality. I was
in and out of jail many times. My addiction is all that mattered to me, I had
nothing else to lose but life.
On August 15, 2006, I was arrested with no chance to get out of jail this time. I
went through weeks of withdrawals. Once the drugs wore off I began to feel all
the years of pain that I had avoided with drugs. It was horrible, then a girl told
me about Jesus and gave me a Gideons Bible.
I made a choice that day to give my life to Jesus and to do my best to live my
life for Him. I then prayed a prayer everyday while I was there that God would
remove the desires for drugs from my heart and replace it with the desire to
know Him. I never used drugs again since that day I was arrested. I have been
clean for 7 years!
I have actively continued pursuing a relationship with God which has taught me
how to deal with life’s issues and challenges. I have connected with a
wonderful church. I let go of the badrelationship/people from my life and
connected with new true Christian friends that walks with me and holds me
I have a wonderful relationship with my oldest daughter who is now 22 and my
7 month old granddaughter, we talk daily and see each other at least twice a
week. God is still working on my relationship with my son who is 19 but I know
in Gods timing it will happen. My youngest daughter who is 10 lives with me
and is being raise in a Christian loving home. I have a wonderful relationship
with all of my family.
God has open doors that I never would have even thought existed for me. I
have worked in a law firm for 5 years now (yes even with felony convictions,
NOTHING is too big for God), I teach kids church, I mentor several people and
I do jail and prison ministry.
God has not restored my life or anything in it. He has given me NEW life, NEW
relationships, a NEW job, NEW friends and NEW desires.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s
love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our
fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers
of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or
in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to
separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our